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With Eyes Wide Open

It's been years since I've returned but there seems to be something beautiful yet haunting that whispers to me from this place. I long to return. Recently I've been wondering what it is that draws me here. I wanted to pin it down and I will make an attempt here: From the moment I step foot onto this land there are heavy odours of garbage, smoke and sweat that assault my senses. Mixed with the heavy, humid air and the noises of car horns and peoples voices, the first few seconds are overwhelming. It is unmistakable, you are somewhere completely new. Riding through the streets in the night you can only make out shadows of buildings, cars, roads, trees. But even in the dark of night life is illuminated as you watch people twisting by one another on roads and pass by frail bodies scooting under empty spaces for a nights rest. The car speeds through the street and all the lights and people and voices become too much so you close your eyes. And you are struck by the pleasure ...
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In a Station of the Metro

For those of you who like me seem to spend most of your week on transit you will know what it is to partake in 'people watching'. Sometimes I'm really struck by the amount of people who we cross paths with on a daily basis. We have no idea what kind of lives they lead and what kind of stories their lives consist of. Transit commutes seem so mechanical and inhumane. During peak hours I honestly feel like we are being herded around like cattle. But once in a while you connect with a passer-by, usually in simple ways but it's always so surprising and powerful. It reminds you that we cross paths with real people everyday. I wrote this on a ride home almost a year ago: I saw a young woman sitting and talking to a young man on the bus. She had a little girl on her lap and a little boy sitting by her. The little boy gazed at the man as he spoke and grew more comfortable around him. The boy soon asked the man if he could sit on his lap and the man said, "No you...

To Be An Island

**This is a post I wrote many months back but held onto. I've decided to let it loose.** In my few years on earth so far I have encountered much talk of the struggle that humanity faces with loneliness. I'm quite intrigued by this struggle especially when it is paired with the statement that humans are meant to be social beings. Here are thoughts on loneliness by some relatively famous people: “We're born alone, we live alone, we die alone. Only through our love and friendship can we create the illusion for the moment that we're not alone.” -Orson Welles (Filmmaker) “Who knows what true loneliness is - not the conventional word but the naked terror? To the lonely themselves it wears a mask. The most miserable outcast hugs some memory or some illusion.” - Joseph Conrad (Writer) “The whole conviction of my life now rests upon the belief that loneliness, far from being a rare and curious phenomenon, peculiar to myself and to a few other solitary men, is the ce...

The opening of rosebuds

Summer is here! There is something about spring and summer that brings me such inexplicable joy! The uncovering of the earth from the snow and ice, the dressing of trees with new leaves and blossoms, the growing of fresh green grass on the ground we tread, the beautiful flowers that cannot seem to be contained from every corner of the earth and the strong glaring sun that causes all these things to flourish in abundance! I look at all this beauty and sometimes I feel as if my feeble body will not be able to take in everything it senses. And these moments, of awe and wonder and contentment, they usually occur when I pull my mind away from tasks and goals and take a look at the world around me. Does it ever amaze you that the beauty of the world just sits there as we walk to and fro with our worries and hopes and dreams? Sometimes I wonder whether God shakes His head at the blessing we miss out on when we belittle the magnificence of our very existence. People argue about whether there i...

Forced Rest

After a year and 3 months of silence I am back!! My break has caused me to question the lay-out and overall look of this blog. I will be doing some remodeling so please excuse the occasional change. Also do let me know if you have any suggestions or critiques for the blog. I've been sick. Not my usual irritated throat and swollen glands sickness. This was the full out unable to function, aching body and complete disorientation type sickness. I tried to work through it on Monday but that only led to my symptoms getting worse and forcing me to stay home Tuesday and Wednesday. Like most people I loathe being sick and do not like having to change or delay my life because of it. But as I lay on my couch yesterday and gave in to the pain raging in my body I wondered what I was really fighting. Was this really unnecessary? Sickness isn't everyone's idea of a divine intervention but I was seriously thinking about what the Lord wanted to teach me in this moment of forced rest. I did...

Whom are you running to?

Due to popular demand I have been challenged to shorten my posts. I will try... Where are you going in life? What are you working, studying, struggling, stressing, perservering for? Often times we are so caught up in getting to our goal that we never really consider whether our goal will satisfy or last. We go to school to get a job. That is a common goal. But many people, once they've got a job, sit around and need to find another goal to strive for. It's the same thing with all other earthly goals, none of them, once they are achieved, give you lasting satisfaction. I am learning the hard lesson of not being consumed by goals right now. I had plans for my education and they made me feel safe and secure and in control. But the realistic truth is, plans always change and no matter how you try, you are not in complete control of what happens in your life. So I'm learning to go to God with all these possibilities for my future and just lay them down before Him. I am learning ...